Now this being the last semester of my stay in KGP, it has finally begun to dawn upon me that in three-and-a-half months I will be getting out of KGP for good. This place has been home for the last four-and-a-half years, and suddenly you're outta here.
While you always know that you will be going away sometime, certain things can rub the reality into your face pretty hard. For me, these things were "The Lasts". Some of them are small enough to be overlooked, but some are pretty huge to escape from.
I have already talked about the "first last", the registration for the last semester (damn it was one crappy day), there have been further events that make you realise that the clock is ticking, and days slipping out of your hands. Be it the last "first mess meal" of the semester or the last "first class" that you attend, you are always dreading the moment when these things will be no more. And then the big one hits you. The Last Spring Fest.
Four days of an endless series of events (OK OK, it stops officially at 11:30PM each day), star nights, competitions, dancing at perpz, eating good pizza(the only time of the year this is possible in KGP), and hanging out with your friends, with the mind free of all worries, atleast for these four days. But for me, this was the last one. Perhaps the last time hanging out with friends like there is no tomorrow. And when you think of something like this, whole of the last five years flash before your eyes, times with friends, having fun, no worries.
Afterwards, you are left with a horribly empty feeling, and I can't make out what it really is. Just plain despair at the thought of having to lose times like these. Maybe ten years hence I will be able to look back and cherish these times and memories, but right now I cannot think of what I will do after 20th May, away from my home of five years.
Anyway, I still have a few "lasts" tucked away, to unfold as the semester passes, and the only way to be happy is to hope that you have your friends around you at these time :).
EDIT: In Koba's words of a year ago, leaving KGP will hurt, It will really hurt like hell.
8 comments:
So ppl have started to spell it out. Hopefully some of us, if not all will be able to be arnd each other one way or the other :)
I guess we have to invent a new tagline for you --
"When was the last time you did something for the last time" :P
@recca
the "other" ways of being around like the internet/messengers/blogs are really nice, but sometimes you need to have a good old face to face style bhaat session. :)
@vivek
;)
I know the feeling
I made a similar post after my last SF at http://koushik03.rediffblogs.com/
Beware! The sento might be too much!!
:D
@koba
words of wisdom you spoke a year ago. I have borrowed 'em to include in my own post.
hehe... me bunked Sf. thinking of going to Kshitij. lets see.
Hi dear,
Exactly as i guessed, u have jotted the things down in ur new blog.
wait for my blog which i'll complete now, as i have returned from BCRoy, for the last time! (it's another last u and i are going to miss, buddy!!)
@nitzee
last SF miss nahi karna chaiye tha, but anyways, no probz.... last khitij enjoy to kiya you.
@nimesh
BCRoy is one thing that i will NOT miss. four hellish days spent there are enough torture for a lifetime.
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